OCD

[jeremy1069]

Hi I'm new here. I'm a message board/BBS/forum junkie (I post all over the place and even moderate a few boards) so I figured this would be a good site to register with.

 

I'm 20 years old. I was diagnosed with aspergers syndrome in 2002. A lot of OCD comes with aspergers syndrome as part of the package.

 

In September 2006 I started out of nowhere losing interest in the person I love very much. This kept getting worse and worse, then better, then worse, then better.

 

Over 2007 my family (I still live with my mom and younger sister) almost lost our house and we spent 3 months without electricity. Before the electricity went out Iwas already starting to have problems with cursed objects, numbers, colors, songs, radio stations, etc and it just got worse and worse especially during the time when we were without electricity.

 

Because I think touching certain things, looking at certain colors, dealing with the numbers 5, 6, 10, 12, 13, 17, 19, 23, 26 and 27 (I try to avoid them as much as possible) listening to certain radio stations, going to certain websites, walking somewhere on a specific side of the street, aiming in a certain direction, having everything organized, afraid to throw out plasic soda bottles, afraid 2 objects touching each other will curse each other, the feeling that something bad will happen to me often settles in for no specific reason and avoiding these things is what I have been doing to avoid bad things happening.

 

I've also been dealing with unwanted thoughts that me or the person I love is possessed by the devil. In the spring I got a Sirius Satellite Radio and I kept seeing satanic symbols on things. My XM satellite radio or anything to do with XM seems to have me to have a fall out with this person.

 

 

I had been taking lorazepam for anxiety. I ended up on 80MG of Prozac a day. Yet after several months on this medication I am still dealing with all of this.

 

Compulsions I have include having to do the sign of the cross 4 times when walking in or out of the house and turning the computer on and off. For the computer, 2 on me, 2 on the person I love.

 

Then umbers listed I believe are cursed especially 5, 6, and 13. 6 having to do with the devil, 13 being unlucky and 5 being the number of the month of May which seems to be an unlucky month.

 

 

The thing thatreally upsets me about all of this is its taking away things I used to love to do and possibly taking away my relationship.

 

So many things that I have been doing for years (hobbies, etc) I just can't do anymore because I think I'll get cursed or something bad will happen. I get a feeling of fear in my chest and stomach.

 

It improved a tad bit since starting on the Prozac but its still here full blown. I really miss my old self the way I was prior to this.

 

 

I don't want to sound like an emo person here but over the summer I more then once downed an entire jumbo bottle of lorazepam because I couldn't handle it anymore. Same thing goes for sleeping pills. All it did was make me act drunk.

 

If anybody here takes lorazepam, after 1-2 days without it I start to shake and twitch, go without sleeping and then I end up waking up in an ambulence on the way to the hospital for seizure. I have no history of seizures prior to this year. Luckally this only happened twice.

 

Does anybody have any suggestions on what I should do?

[Chemar]

Hi Jeremy and welcome

 

the focus here at Latitudes/ACN is more on alternative treatments rather than on meds.

 

I can speak from experience tho that medicating for OCD did not help my son, in fact things actually got worse,but the combination of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and supplements to boost serotonin really did help

 

we have a sticky here with some useful info

http://www.latitudes.org/forums/index.php?showtopic=1963

 

please dont try any OCD supplements while you are still on the prescription meds, as that can cause serotonin spiking which can be very dangerous.

 

Based on what you are describing, I would highly recommend finding a CBT therapist. It **really** helps!