The Quirkster Posted May 14, 2007 Report Posted May 14, 2007 I have been seeing doctors for four years for treatment of my OCD and only last year did I start doing Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I improved for a time, but have since slipped back and now find myself struggling more than ever. I know that CBT and medication is the best way to deal with OCD, but I'm still stuck in the mire. I haven't been able to work since February '06, and I'm hoping that I can learn to live with the OCD and have a normal life. But at the moment, I can't seem to find my way out. My psychologist says that in treating OCD you usually take two steps forward and one step back. Right now, I'm smack bang in the middle of the step back, and it feels less like a step and more like a lunge. I've been on all the different medications: Anafranil, Prozac, Zoloft, Lamictal, Lithium, Epilem, Effexor, Risperdal, and others. I'm on Zyprexa and Luvox at the moment and I'm just not seeing any difference. I just don't know what to do with myself. I am close to being hospitalised. I cry myself to sleep every night. Twice I have OD'd on sleeping tablets (On the first occasion I had to be taken to hospital), because I just wanted to sleep, to get away from the urges and the compulsions (Don't worry, I'm not suicidal, I never have been and the overdosing wasn't an attempt on my life). My family is so unbelievably supportive and I hate that they have to worry about me, and I hate knowing the pain they went through to see me in hospital after I OD'd. I can see that it is sucking the life from my Mum everytime she sees me screaming at the mirror while I clean my teeth and spit blood into the sink. Look, I just need some advice, words of encouragement, and any ideas on how to help myself and my family cope with this. I really appreciate it.
natalie Posted May 28, 2007 Report Posted May 28, 2007 The Quirkster said: I have been seeing doctors for four years for treatment of my OCD and only last year did I start doing Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I improved for a time, but have since slipped back and now find myself struggling more than ever. I know that CBT and medication is the best way to deal with OCD, but I'm still stuck in the mire. I haven't been able to work since February '06, and I'm hoping that I can learn to live with the OCD and have a normal life. But at the moment, I can't seem to find my way out. My psychologist says that in treating OCD you usually take two steps forward and one step back. Right now, I'm smack bang in the middle of the step back, and it feels less like a step and more like a lunge. I've been on all the different medications: Anafranil, Prozac, Zoloft, Lamictal, Lithium, Epilem, Effexor, Risperdal, and others. I'm on Zyprexa and Luvox at the moment and I'm just not seeing any difference. I just don't know what to do with myself. I am close to being hospitalised. I cry myself to sleep every night. Twice I have OD'd on sleeping tablets (On the first occasion I had to be taken to hospital), because I just wanted to sleep, to get away from the urges and the compulsions (Don't worry, I'm not suicidal, I never have been and the overdosing wasn't an attempt on my life). My family is so unbelievably supportive and I hate that they have to worry about me, and I hate knowing the pain they went through to see me in hospital after I OD'd. I can see that it is sucking the life from my Mum everytime she sees me screaming at the mirror while I clean my teeth and spit blood into the sink. Look, I just need some advice, words of encouragement, and any ideas on how to help myself and my family cope with this. I really appreciate it.
powerofprayer Posted May 28, 2007 Report Posted May 28, 2007 Quirkster, i've just read your post and I don't really have any words of advice since i'm not real familiar with OCD (I usually hang out on the TS/tics board. Having a tic disorder myself, I understand what it's like to feel different in this world! Please try to remember that God doesn't give us any more than we can handle.....He will bring you through this......and you will be stronger in the end! I know you will find a way to live with OCD......it will take time. Search online for possible treatments.....I know the tourettes syndrome board has a WEALTH of infomation. I would continue with the CBT if you feel it's worked in the past, and perhaps your whole family could attend counseling sessions on how to deal with your OCD in a more positive manner. Just my humble opinion. For now, please know that I am saying a prayer for you as i'm writing this! I pray God gives you strength and leads you down the path to find some answers.
Chemar Posted May 28, 2007 Report Posted May 28, 2007 I would once again like to recommend the forums at Psych Central where they have a far more active OCD membership http://forums.psychcentral.com/
one with nature Posted June 1, 2007 Report Posted June 1, 2007 try meditating. I made a post about that. Just sit in your bed at night, and breathe deep a few times. Then relax and just let it be. allow you thoughts to flow, and don't "try" to stop anything from happening. Just let everything happen. If you have a great urge to perform some ritual, just relax and let that thought flow through you. Don't react to it, and as soon as you feel the anxiety coming, relax even more and kill the anxiety. feel comfortable being in the here and now. don't "try" to feel comfortable, just feel it. I don't have OCD that bad, but I stil have it, and meditating helps a ton. The more you worry about your OCD, the worse it gets.
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