qannie47 Posted June 30, 2014 Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 (edited) Just a vent here. Truly. I have a habit of quitting smoking for about a 5 year stretch....Then I start again. Call it Pandas, Sensory Issues, ODD. Whatever, when it hits the fan I smoke. Coming off my last 1 1/2 year stint of my love for Marlboro Menthyl Silvers 100 for about 1 week now...I can't help but think, "Really!!! After all I have been through??? I am supposed to give up my one vice when I still have ONE child to get through the wreckage???" "I have to cook gluten, Dairy, Egg free and not smoke?". To please the WORLD I have to give up my one thing that gives me piece of mind for 1 1/2 minutes ten times a day??? UGGGh. Yes. I have pinky promised my Pandas child and I have done it. It is just that right now, when my food allergy child, on a play date ate gluten two days in a row that aggravates me, and begs the question, "Who really wants to live to 90 anyway???". Q Edited June 30, 2014 by qannie47 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cara615 Posted June 30, 2014 Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 Funny - I quit in 2006 and cheated here and there and really quit for good in 2010. Then we got our PANDAS dx and I'm back to my parliaments. Its been over a year now. I can't forse me giving it up anytime soon....... I know I have to eventually though...... I'm 40 now..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SSS Posted June 30, 2014 Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 The nicotine lozenges are just as addicting. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hrosenkrantz Posted June 30, 2014 Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 (edited) One person's cigarette relapse is another person's too-frequent burger king drive through, or 10 am glass of wine (not that I know anyone who would do that) Edited June 30, 2014 by hrosenkrantz MomWithOCDSon and MissionMama 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
qannie47 Posted June 30, 2014 Author Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 Glad to see im not alone! Ten days so far...not to bad .. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cara615 Posted June 30, 2014 Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 I love that you can be real here. I appreciate and value that. i could have put all my frustration, anxiety and anger towards something else. But instead i took up the easiest most familiar vice I knew: smoking. Its the only thing that helps me through the really uncertain times. I see it for what it is, I am hurting myself but I am also too weak to stop right now. And to know I am not alone in this makes me feel a little better. GOOD LUCK qannie! You are doing a wonderful thing and I know you will be able to kick the habit. I am rooting for you!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
qannie47 Posted June 30, 2014 Author Report Share Posted June 30, 2014 Thanks Cara, and don't beat yourself up either. My smileys are not working again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rowingmom Posted July 1, 2014 Report Share Posted July 1, 2014 One person's cigarette relapse is another person's too-frequent burger king drive through, or 10 am glass of wine (not that I know anyone who would do that) Ahh, yes. The wine, although mine tends to be between 9pm to midnight. As soon as DD hits the sheets..... My MIL had good luck stopping smoking with hypnotherapy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
qannie47 Posted July 2, 2014 Author Report Share Posted July 2, 2014 my smiley appeared ...wait, let me try that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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