Hi I have been suffering since I was 12 and would like some input on you guys because my doctor just brought up Pandas. Well when I was 12 something weird happened. I don't know if it happened overnight or not but I started feeling poorly. I lost the ability it felt like to experiance pleasure or the energy or excitement I used to have (ecspecially when playing sports). I started to get really bad headaches ecspecially when I exercised or exerted myself. I did not want to exercise anymore as "it hurt my head" when I ran and I kept saying I felt lightheaded or "I wasn't getting enough blood flow to my head." when i came back to school for my 8th grade year after withdrawing all summer from my friends. I realized i couldnt talk to my friends anymore on my first day. I forgot how to socialize, what i used to say to them or how to please them or make them laugh like i used to. I basically forgot that i was friends with them. My mind felt slow and blank. I would complain to my parents "mom I can't think" my mind feels dead I cant know what to say. I cant visualize anything. I cant remember anything. I dont daydream anymore. I felt really weak and tired throughout the whole year. My head felt tender and hurt all the time. My eyes were very droopy. I didnt enjoy anything and do anything but stay in my bed and sleep. Then the OCD came out. It happend over night. I could no longer be around my sister anymore. I couldnt touch anything she touched couldnt breath her air. I would put towels under my door. I couldnt drive in the same car as her. Every time i touched something she touched I would get much anxiety and wash my hands and do a ritual. She was 'killing my brain cells" She was making me not be able to think and causing my problems.
Anyway eventually I had to leave school freshman year saw a myriad of pychiatrists. Was hospitalized etc. to no benefit. They did tests in the hospital like lyme blood test MRI, eeg, look for diabetes, and labelled me with "treatment resistant" deppresion. They eventually did ECT therapy at 15 to absolutely no benefit which made me worse! I stopped doing my sister obsessions though (at a cost). I always thought it was a pysical problem and kept telling them! But they c\kept saying oh no deppresion has psychcal compalints. I was diagnosed with POTS in the hospital becuase my blood pressure kept dropping and heaert rate accelerating and have been seeing a doctor for that. My neurologist now is suggesting that I could have had Pandas. I had tics when i was a kid and of course strep throat. I also had mono for 4 months too. I do not feel better after taking SO many antideppresents and antipychotics. I even went the holistic route and was taking 40 vitamins a day at one point! I'm looking into autoimmune and lyme. I live in Maryland and my beach house is a heavily infested tick area. My next door neighbor there was just diagnosed with lyme after having 9 ticks in her! Also Of note I was diagnosed with A connective tissue disorder which my doctor suspects is Ehlors Danlos syndrome. And I had increased intracranial hyperetension which was diagnosed with Pseuodotumor cerebri. I had a vp shunt put in to no relief really.
Any ideas any tests any feedback! I'd love to here it! I'm 21 now!