Hello Everyone.
I hope that I have posted this accurately, as I am new to this forum. I am at a loss and need some advice/direction. Around 4-5 weeks ago, our 5 year old daughter literally went to bed "normal" and woke up with "OCD like symptoms". This started as an emotional meltdown, saying that she thought she had drank bleach. My first reaction was panic and I questioned her, but she couldn't remember when or how she drank it. I was immediately on the phone with the on call pediatrician and we came to the conclusion that it wasn't possible for her to have drank bleach, or there would have been obvious evidence. Over the next day or two, she started crying and asking odd questions, such as "What would happen if I stuck a worm in my nose", she watched a cartoon where the character threw a ball at another cartoon character and broke down crying, asking "what would happen if I threw a ball at someone". She was going to the bathroom every 5 minutes, so we had assumed she had an infection going on and took her to the ER. They did a urinalysis and sent us home, saying that they couldn't find anything. We then took her to the pediatrician and they did an in office strep test and sent us for bloodwork (ASO Titer was done as well as toxicology to ensure there was no bleach drinking). We took her back 2 days later for a follow up and her regular pediatrician stated that all of her bloodwork came back "normal" and he could refer us to a psychiatrist if warranted, but he thought that "she was going through a developmental stage and was questioning things around her to see where they fit in her life". Her behavior progressed with constant "confessing" to things that she had thought she might have done, saying that she was having bad thoughts and didn't want to think those things. At one point, she told me that she "thought she hated me, but really didn't and didn't know why that thought popped into her head". We don't want to take her to a psychiatrist unless that is our last resort. We reassured her repeatly and have been very caring and informing her that all of these thoughts are normal (we don't want her to think that there is something wrong with her), we have been welcoming the "confessions and bad thoughts" and explain to her that these are clouds and for her to allow them to come into her head and let them float out. With this process, her crying spells have long gone, but she is occassionally coming to us for "confessions". I put on a smile when she is awake, but break down when she is asleep. I don't want my child to have to deal with all of this. I don't know what to do and not sure where to turn without having to take her to a psychiatrist and have her FEEL as if something is wrong with her. My question is - CAN THIS BE PANDAS, EVEN THOUGH ASO, STREP CAME BACK NEGATIVE? If anyone could please point me in the right direction, I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you and God Bless!!