Desperate mom reflection

[BeeRae22]

One year ago tonight, on New Year's Eve, I was sitting in this exact same spot, in my bed with the lights off and the silent tv on.... A desperate mother scouring the Internet trying to figure out what was happening to my daughter.

 

She had been fine, until mid October. Then she stopped eating. She began raging. Hitting, scratching, kicking. She hated school. She was depressed. She picked her skin raw. She cried out in her sleep. She was afraid all the time. She was starving.

 

I was terrified.

 

Some time after midnight I came across some information about Pandas. A big, bright lightbulb went off. This was it!!! I knew instantly.

 

We've come a long way since then. Dd is finally eating again. She is flairing this month from a cold, but I now know that she'll get through it. We're haven't reached the end of this road, but we will.... One day.

 

I am not sad to see 2014 go. This has been the most challenging, difficult and heartbreaking years of my life. My heart goes out to anyone who might be reading this, because that means that you've been touched by this awful disease in some way. May your new year bring progress, health, love and peace to you and your families. Thank you for being there. God Bless.