Merry Go Round

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I just want to say that I so appreciate this forum and all the incredible insight and support that comes with it.

 

Sometimes when I start to lose my own mind, either from manic googling, or insurmountable despair, this forum brings me back to grounded strength and perseverance.

 

Sometimes, when I am paralyzed to act from fear of shut doors or a resurgence of disaster, this forum gives me the courage and the resolve to move forward.

 

We are each different, with varied stories, but we are all riding the same merry go round. Am hopeful that our collective resolve will allow us to embrace this circular journey. And then...

 

And then in my mind I imagine again and again, this vivid scene from Mary Poppins. When the Merry Go Round breaks free from its beams and each of us ride off into the incredibly vivid and bright world.

 

I don't believe in finish lines, but I do believe in happiness.

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I will never forget when I first found this forum (after being on biomedical healing autism forums for a few years)

I read back pages here literally all night, and thought:

My people! From my planet!

 

One great thing I've noticed this last year with my husband and I:

We've gained acceptance.

More so me, which in turn makes his life easier ;-)

More than a merry-go-round, I find more peaks and valleys.

The valleys are not nearly as dark as they were, though,

and I've learned to not try and figure out the future,

and take it day by day.