I'm 19 and have literally started to get similar thoughts. Literally a few months after I turned 19 I saw a T.V. show and I started thinking what if I did that or wanted to and I havnt been able to get the thought out of my mind since. I've been to the doctor and theyre saying they cant find a shrink for me at the mo on the NHS and I cant really afford private. I have so much support from family but I can only tell them how the thoughts make me feel and that I dont want them, but not what they are actually about. I get thoughts about literally anything or anyone too, but when its my family or even kids I feel sick to my stomach and I dont know what to do. Im not suicidal or anything like that, but I need someone to talk to, and I really thought I was alone in all this.
