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unfortunatly i live in portugal a country that lacks good mental institutions all i have to somehow help me bear with all my rituals is my medication which is zyprexa pazolam and seroxat thanks for caring Sheila

im opening my heart to you cause most of you suffer from this terrible condition its been three years since i suffer from OCD it all started with repetitive checking and hand washing cause im terribly scared of catching aids and in a couple of months my rituals had taken five or six hours of my life i was in college but i couldnt leave my house cause i was afraid of any contact with anyone i droped my studies and now i live with my parents i barely leave my house and have lost all my friends and my girlfriend my days are spent repetitive checking everything in my house for blood stains my hands are mess and i have several wounds and burns from all the alchool i use to disinfect them i also change my clothes very often and if someone touches my clothes i imediatly wash them before i sit down on a chair i have to confirm that the chair doesnt have any blood stains after i shake someones hand i spend the next five minutes checking for any blood traces on my hand and imediatly disinfect my hands i spend a good part of my day disinfecting my room with alchool and my furniture is all ruined do to the amount of alchool i use before i go to sleep i always check my bed sheets for blood stains which lasts at least one hour ive been in a mental institution but i went insane and had to get back home cause i couldnt bear to be that exposed i cant study and i cant have a job how im i suposed to live questionmark im twenty three years old and my life is completly ruined i want to know if theres someone with similar symptoms that defeated this terrible condition and i want to know how do i get my life back lately ive been having some suicidal tendencies which is almost like a paradox since all these rituals are to prevent me from catching aids and deep inside all i want is to die

i have similar symptoms im constanly washing my hands and disinfecting them my hands are mess and i have several wounds and burns from all the alchool i use to disinfect my hands i also change my clothes very often and if someone touches my clothes i imediatly wash them but im not a germaphobic im just scared of catching aids so i spend my day checking my house for blood stains or anything related to blood before i sit down on a chair i have to confirm that the chair doesnt have any blood stains after i shake someones hand i spend the next five minutes checking for any blood traces on my hand and imediatly disinfect my hands i spend a good part of my day disinfecting my room with alchool my furniture is all ruined do to the amount of alchool i use do you have any kind of medical help questionmark medication helps me alot even tho i still do my rituals remember youre not alone and if you ever need help just contact me and vent

bluebird is right jenna you have OCD i also started with the light switch and door closing routine along with all the hand washing and in over one year all those routines had taken like five to six hours from my day i droped out of school and now i just spend my days locked at home afraid of germs and doing the same confirmation routines you should seek help right now before its to late medication can help a lot and an expert can help abandon all those routines sorry to have to tell you this i hope you get better

im no doctor but i suffer from OCD myself and i have to say that your friend has some symptoms specialy when you say that she cant stop thinking about something many discribe OCD as brain hiccups the brain gets stuck on a particular thought or urge and just cant let go another thing is the lists that she makes some OCD patients tend to organize everything but hey im no expert all i know is from personal experience but if you say that those symptoms dont disturb her thats good OCD can be a very painfully thing