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This is exactly what I have experienced. Now I am 30. 8 years ago, I had a girlfriend. I loved her. One night, I found a letter written by my ex-girlfriend. I began to obsess about my ex-girlfriend since that night. I did not know how to handle it. I did not know I had OCD then. I just thought over and over if I still loved my ex-girlfriend, but in fact in my heart I knew I did not want to start over with my ex-. I did not want to break up with my current girlfriend but the anxiety was so serious that my daily life was affected considerably. I broke up with her about 1 month later, with tears and regret. That did not make sense, but it alleviated my anxiety. Both my girlfriend and I did not know I had OCD. If we had known it, we would have tackled the problem otherwise. One year later, I was diagnosed as having OCD by an experienced counsellor. She advised me to go to see a psychiatrist. I was given Zoloft and I decided to take the pills. My anxiety was much alleviated and I felt like the formidable illness has been cured! The sad fact is, I have lost someone who I cherished a lot forever. Actually, my disease has not been fully cured. I did not continue to take the drug when I felt better. After a year or two, the illness came back again. I suffered from OCD on and off. What I feel grateful is I can have Zoloft to help me when I suffer. I have started a new relationship for 1 and a half year and I plan to marry her one and a half years later. OCD keeps coming back and i need to fight it every now and then. I feel bad sometimes but I am determined not to let my girlfriend down. In short, medicine and determination helps. Don't give up, mate!