Mysterious_Creature

I certainly disagree that Austism is a disease. It really makes me angry when people call it a disease.

I have Aspergers, and apparently that scares guys off. Every guy I've ever cared for had rejected me in a rather painful manner. There's a guy I like right now, but he'll only reject me, too. Just like all the others. Its pointless for me to have those feeling for anyone, as I will only get hurt every time. They'll tell me in subtle hints that I'm not good enough, that I'm creepy, and that I'm weird. They'll tell me the reasons they wouldn't be good for me, which I've learned is only masking a more direct statement: "I'm not interested in you. I don't want you. You're not good enough. Stop liking me." Yes I'm bitter. Yes I'm afraid to have feelings for anyone. I'm so sick of being rejected and hurt. Nobody can love me. It also doesn't help that I'm fat and ugly. No guys want girls like me. I'm fat, ugly, and I refuse to conform to society's image of 'feminine'.

My name is Tokaia and I have Asperger's Syndrome with Tourette's. I'm 20 years old, and am an only child. I'm from Central Illinois. I enjoy nature very much, and I don't find anything at all icky about nature. My whole life had been a horror story. I'm quite bitter towards the ones who hurt me. I came here in an effort to find others like me, and maybe some who live near me that I may befriend.