Faiz

thanks alot, the irony of the whole situation is im a medical graduate(a doctor), and even though we cover this ocd part in our psychiatry section,im going to inform myself more on this. the worse part is I cant speak about this to people around me,their ignorance is pathetic,coz all people can do is judge on the drop of a needle. I wish and pray people are more aware of OCD. more people are affected by OCD then by HIV...

hello, im very sad,as a matter of fact even while registering for this website my ocd was flaring up,but im here today,because today was it,i think ive had the worst flare-up of my OCD in my entire life. i want to cry but am out of tears,ive been having this OCD since childhood,and i used to wonder as a kid what in the world is wrong with with me,you have no idea what repetitive stuff i have done... and all the hand washing,and going back and forth,counting all the freaking trees and lights,and trying to think of a calming idea to get rid of the distressing thoughts. ive realized mostly when i think of certain people,i have to stop what im doing and restart it all over again,and over and over and over...LORD SAVE ME!!! before it was people in my school,now its people from my family, and the weird part is,now the people from my school dont bother me in my thoughts, im very tired of this,ive heard of medications,but dont want to take them coz of side effects. ive also noticed that these flare ups are getting worse since the past 2 months or so,since ive decided to take care of my life,by that i mean to get the most important things of the day done.... my last flare up was i think 1 or 2 years ago. tired of all this repetition,i want to get rid of this feeling, please help.