alonepoe

I am new here, but wanted to thank everyone for sharing their story. I am 31 yrs old and recently found out i have ocd. Although looking back on it , it was obvious i have had it for a while. I too have found the woman of my dream, but am slowly destroying the relationship. All my irrational fear, and unwanted thought are killing me, and driving her crazy. Every time she goes out the thoughts arise, and don't stop. We have been together for a year, and although i have no reason not to trust her, i always fear the worst. To the ocd extreme. I do not want this, and she fears i am smothering her. I am wonder about medication, but am fearful of side affect and dependency ( i had self medicated for many years) I am wondering if anyone has some good advice, or knows if there are support groups in the Philadelphia area. Any help would be appreciated. Thanks