I started developing anxiety/panic attacks in 1995, in which I was 25 years old at the time. In November of 1995 I had a weird thought when I saw my friends children in the living room of his home. I had a little beer buzz going and all of a sudden a thought came into my head saying "GO ON GET EM". And then I had this electrical energy go from my stomach to my gentials and then the energy disapated. I immediatly went home and tripped out on just what happened. To me it felt that I had a sexual urge towards the kids. Then 2 months later it happened again around my brothers children, this time I was a little "high" on weed. After the second time it happened I freaked out and went to a Psychologist. She told me they were just thoughts and weird energies and not to worry about them. I have no interest in children sexually. That is why I do not understand what those feelings were because I had felt such a strong charge go through my body. Then I was driving to a office with a co-worker (male) and I had the the weird thought "GO ON GET EM" and that weird charge went through me. Then I felt that I was sexually attracted to men (WEIRD). Then it happened to a female co-worker a month or two later, same feelings and everything. Then I was driving home from a trip with my wife and my brother and his wife, and my anxieties were really high at the time and I had this weird thought about pulling the steering the wheel, I guess to wreck or something who knows, and at the time I had that sick, weird thought I felt that strong charge go through my body and out through my gentials. So for the last 13 years I have dealt with feeling tremendous anxiety around children and constantly feeling tensed around my groin area, which then runs down through my leg. I do not know what is going on with me but I wish I was normal again to where I could be around children and sometimes adults without being nervous and feeling something sexual. Anybody feel these same thoughts or anything similiar?
