Steve34
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its funny how the edit '######' but not 'fucked'. weird. haha. but anyways, im over any of that gay stuff almost, but i still get violent thoughts. i alwyas think if i see someone, ill beat them up or something. i have a violent family often, so i get in lots of fights, inside my home and out of it, i think it comes from growing up with violence. the same could be said about pornogra
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yeah shits fucked up. i guess it is all ocd, i always have these crazy thoughts and have for years. only in the last month or 2 have they been fucked up, kinda gay ones, but basically i just thought ###### it, if i find out i am ill admit it. it realy just helped cos i thuoght 'im not gonna admit it, cos if i do, ill just kick myself in a day or two and say why the ###### did i say that?''
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only could have short comments sorry. well yeah, most people get these thoughts, and it doesnt mean we will do them, its just curiousity and i know it kills you but you will eventuallu get over it. as that one guy said, theres a big difference between thoughts and wants. if your SO creeped out by even the prospect of these thoughts, then its prety obvious you dont wanna do them right? my friend to
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hey buddy i read your post about them wacko thoughts u were having. im only 18 and for the last month they have been plauging me too.
i saw a psych about it and its helping, he told me how everyone thinks these weird thoughts, sexual, violent or whatnot, and freak out about it. i overanalyse stuff like everyone else, it was so strange reading what otehrs said, i thought i was alone
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I have suffered from unwanted sexual thoughts since my teenage years. I am now 23 and am still dealing with them. Often times they get so frustrating that I feel trapped. When I first hit puberty I had a huge attraction to women. I was developing normally as a male. When making the transition to high school I got very depressed. My friends were getting into drugs and alcohol and I didn't want to follow them into it. I stopped haning out with them and was left without any friends at all. So I stayed home every weekend and cried to my mom about how I didn't have any friends. Eventually my mom took me to my family doctor and he gave me some Celexa for depression. After about 4 months of taking the Celexa I noticed that I could not get an erection. I didn't know what the ###### was going on. I had no clue that the medicine was causing this problem. So I started to quesiton my sexuality. There was no way in ###### I was gay though because my attraction to women was off of the charts, beforehand. Every time I looked at a decent looking girl at school I popped a boner, but not anymore. Anyway, I was freaked out and tried to stimulate myself. I couldn't get my penis to work. I was in a panick and remembered seeing the movie "Road Trip" where the guy gets his prostate milked by a nurse. Out of desparation I tried this and it helped me to get an erection. I had no homosexual intent by doing this, I was merely trying to help myself out. Anyway as a result of doing this, the obsessive homosexual thoughts flooded my mind. I have been battling them ever since and it is torture at times. In my case the meds were the beginning of my OCD thoughts. They don't help nowdays because of the sexual side effects they cause. They only make things worse. Anyway, I just thought I would put my story out there to help anyone else who is suffering from a similar story.