mufan

My OCD causes me to create scenarios that cause me anxiety such as conflict scenarios. I will create scenarios of conflict (oral and physica) and then replay what I would do in the situation over and over in my mind until the anxiety subsides. But it only subsides for the moment and then the obsession comes back again. Right now I am struggling with a fight I backed down from 15 years ago. I replay what I would have done over and over in my mind if I had it to do again. I actually envision myself at the same spot 15 years ago and replay what I should have done or said. It's absolutely crazy and it makes no sense but I can't help it. I suppose that's the nature of the disease though. Anybody else share anything similar?

My OCD came on me in the sixth grade. It was an overnight kind of thing. It started with guilt over things in the past and then progressed to obsessive compulsive checking disorder. I had ritual acts of checking electrical outlets, stove, etc. I don't do the checking thing anymore but obsessive thoughts and guilt are still very much present.

Toaster, I know what you mean about it ruining relationships. Are you the child of an alcoholic? Not knowing what is "normal" is a classic symptom of ACOC's. I know because my father was an alcoholic and I have have no idea what "normal" is.