MyMindsPlayinTricksOnMe

The same thing has been bothering me for about a week now. I kept having strange thoughts about family members who I know I'm not attracted to. Then all of sudden they began to emerge into me thinking homosexual thoughts about men. This scared me because I have had sexual encounters with women,I still find women attractive to me,and I have a girlfriend who I love. I dont want to do any of the things that I'm thnking because I find it disgusting. Having some type of sexual relationship with my cousin?Disgusting! I then began to think to myself "Do I still like women?" "Have I turned gay?" But,I have no such desire to lead a homosexual lifestyle. Things like this have always been a problem for me, I've had thoughts of violence which have stayed on my mind for just as long.It seems that recently I have been thinking strange thoughts out of nowhere.Sometimes I just want to get rid of it and end it all. I also havent sought professional help to tell me if I have OCD or anything of the sort.I'm afraid that if I go to seek help they will just tell me I'm gay and that is something that I dont want at all. I haven't been able to function properly as of late.I have not been able to eat,because the homosexual thoughts are just constantly racking my brain. All I have been able to do is sleep 4 or 5 times a day. If anyone has gone/is going through what I'm facing right now,someone to talk to would be greatly appreaciated. Thankyou!