Wow, are you ever normal!!!! I have a very mild case of OCD, in fact, I went to see a therapist when I first developed OCD at age 27 and she told me that I would be better off sticking to the behavioral therapy rather than meds. And I still have the exact thoughts and issues that you have,…everyone does!!! You see, I'm a "pure obsession," I have few if any checking behaviors but like you I live in a world of obsession, I can sit and just beat the ###### out of a dead horse until people pull their hair out. I am also in a relationship dealing with many of the same issues you are dealing with,....and now at 30, I feel that I may be with the person that I want to marry, but if I don’t I know it is not just the OCD that did not allow it to work out There have been some issues in our relationship that have created problems arguments, as with any relationship. To be honest the OCD certainly does not help when we have problems,... but the problems ARE STILL there and need to be addressed with or with out the OCD symptoms,. the OCD just makes it FEEL worse that it REALLY is. I find that is how you react to the situation that determines how things will go. When you are feeling like you are about to jump all over your partner for something that has made you jealous or obsesive,..or you feel unloved..try to remember that your feelings are real but that your OCD is just making it worse,. This is a merky line,...I always try to determine how much worse the OCD is making it and then rationally explain this to my-self,. if I still feel like it is worth mentioning to my partner then I bring it up,.. calmly and rationally. Most of the time any feelings of insecurity or fear can be dealt with rationally with out involving my partner. Remember as someone with OCD you can't in fact you should never count on someone to relive your obsessions or explain them away,. that is the compulsion. You must deal with the feelings and acknowledge them for what they are,...obsessions and deal with them accordingly. If you have not had some good behavioral therapy in the past,..I have found the "OCD workbook" VERY helpful. Look nobody is ever going to be perfect but you WILL get better if you just keep trying,...deal with your feelings and if they are irrational then know that they are irrational and IGNORE THEM !!! Tell those crazy exaggerated feelings to go away, FACE THEM. Say to your self,..I'm just being jealous and this is only made worse by my OCD so I'm going to just deal with this insecurity for what it is,....silly insecurity.
