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Diane, I feel your pain. My brother has TS and when he was down, the entire family was down. He tried commiting suicide several times, was in and out of re-habs, mental hospitals, and schools. Constantly fighting.. afraid for his life. Always doing the wrong thing. Being a few years younger than him, this really upset me and I spent many days and night worring about him and crying. Even now as adults I'm bailing him out from wrong decisions he's made and I'm afraid he's going to take the family down with him (it's a real possiblity). It's only because I truly love him and have always had a close bond with him that makes me susceptible to being hurt. I know this sounds self-centered, but at what point can I live my own life without having his actions bringing me down? My entire life has been lived around his needs and failings. His worst enemy is himself and I'm afraid he's going to kill himself. The more concerned I am, the worse he probably feels for the things he's done. I feel helpless, resentful, and tired. My advise, if I'm in any position to give one, is to just wait it out and try to become numb towards it all. Family