Hi, Im a 24 year old educated female who has a successful career.However, it has been about 4-5 years when i had my first unwanted sexual thought with a female while i was at work and it was disturbing,however, that year it was not so bad, it would come like once every month or so,but prior to that first thought, i was involved in watching sexual videos and involved in masturbation which i did not want to do but i always have the urge to and then few months after that my unwanted thoughts started coming and recently for the past year they have been so extreme,they come and go, and i mostly have thoughts of not wanting to have sexual thoughts and i know tthat having that makes the thoughts come more, but i feel like i cant help myself, and i am also still involved in the sexual behavior and i feel so guilty, it is affecting my life deeeply, my personal, work,etc..i cant be myself around pple anymore, im this uptight person that can not enjoy life because i do not feel comfortable in my own skin anymore, i am seeing a therapist now for about 7 months, i see her once a week or twice a month depending on my schedule and she is doing something called emdr therapy, it worked a little but now im having those thoughts and behaviors again.. and i have such low self esteem from them, i cant live my life, i hate this, please someone share with me how they overcame this, i need help and i hate it, i HAVE THESE THOUGHTS WITH ANYONE, child to adult even tho im not attracted tot hem by any means and i never act on those thoughts to any human being but still just having the thoughts drives me insane and i need help.
Please Help Me remove these unwanted sexual thoughts
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Hi, Im a 24 year old educated female who has a successful career.However, it has been about 4-5 years when i had my first unwanted sexual thought with a female while i was at work and it was disturbing,however, that year it was not so bad, it would come like once every month or so,but prior to that first thought, i was involved in watching sexual videos and involved in masturbation which i did not want to do but i always have the urge to and then few months after that my unwanted thoughts started coming and recently for the past year they have been so extreme,they come and go, and i mostly have thoughts of not wanting to have sexual thoughts and i know tthat having that makes the thoughts come more, but i feel like i cant help myself, and i am also still involved in the sexual behavior and i feel so guilty, it is affecting my life deeeply, my personal, work,etc..i cant be myself around pple anymore, im this uptight person that can not enjoy life because i do not feel comfortable in my own skin anymore, i am seeing a therapist now for about 7 months, i see her once a week or twice a month depending on my schedule and she is doing something called emdr therapy, it worked a little but now im having those thoughts and behaviors again.. and i have such low self esteem from them, i cant live my life, i hate this, please someone share with me how they overcame this, i need help and i hate it, i HAVE THESE THOUGHTS WITH ANYONE, child to adult even tho im not attracted tot hem by any means and i never act on those thoughts to any human being but still just having the thoughts drives me insane and i need help.