Hi all, I haven't posted here in a long time. Maybe a year or so. Not sure exactly. My daughter has had PANDAS since she was 6. She is now 13. Our life sucks. I don't get to sleep at night. She gets up at night all night. Last night it was about 2:30 in the morning and she never went back to sleep. She yells all the time. She has very obsessive odd thoughts and the list of symptoms go on. She has been diagnosed with an intellectual disability. Who knows if it is part related to her PANDAS. I surely don't. I am tired. I don't want to be her mother anymore. I have no life left. I can't work. We went bankrupt. We lost our house. There is no end in sight. We have tried antibiotics, IVIG, essential oils. You name it. We have tried it with some success, but not nearly enough. I have tried my best. I am just so tired now. I am seriously considering giving up our parental rights and handing her over to the state. I would never have considered it before because I thought they wouldn't be able to help her. The thing is I don't think we can help her either. I just can't do this anymore. Why am I posting this here? Because I now think that there is a point when you have to say uncle. I never in a million years would have imagined that there was. I entertained the thought that I am a terrible parent. You know what? I am not. I gave up everything for her, a career, a home, my life. There is nothing more I can do or give.